My husband is dead.
My. Husband. Is. Dead.
MY husband is dead.
My HUSBAND is dead.
My husband IS dead.
My husband is DEAD.
My husband is dead…
These words, no matter how I say them, no matter what word is emphasized, seem so unfathomable that I find myself incapable of their comprehension. They seem to be on repeat today… maybe because no matter how I repeat them, it still doesn’t settle in. It’s been 6 months of repeating these cold, cruel words, and no matter how often I say them, my heart won’t accept them. Not yet at least. Maybe one day – but today it still feels like a false reality; a very harsh, unplanned, heart clenching, agonizing nightmare.
Jennifer Trapuzzano
Lisa Mayer
October 1, 2014 11:33 amI can hardly believe it has been six months since you lost Nate. I think about you all the time and pray for you every day. I’m sending extra prayers and sacrifices your way today. I’m so sorry you have to hurt so badly. It isn’t fair that you have to bear this, and it makes me so angry that you have to suffer so deeply. Thank you for sharing this blog with the world. When it seems you can’t go one more step, that is when Jesus will carry you.
I havent met you yet, but I love you and I’m praying for you.
linsey1028
October 2, 2014 2:36 amSaying a prayer for you today, a prayer for peace and comfort. I can’t even imagine the pain that you are going through. Hugs!!
Beth Lee
October 3, 2014 11:11 pmYou don’t even know me. I’m a complete stranger to you. But my heart aches with your loss. I remember that day, when I saw you plea for prayers on a Facebook group we both belong to. as you found out Nate had been attacked. I immediately prayed. Only to see later on in the tread that you had lost him. I cried. I don’t even know you but I wept for you. I prayed for you, your growing baby you were still carrying in your womb and for Nate’s soul. As the news reports came in I came to understand what a special and devout man your husband was/is. Its probable that his soul doesn’t need my prayers… That we should be asking him to pray for us, but I will continue to pray for him anyway, and for you and your precious daughter. Peace and comfort be with you, Jennifer.